How have you been? Good? I am ok and I am sorry I haven’t been in touch for… some time. I promise to post bits and pieces as much as I can but… I know there’ s always some “but”. I don’t like waiting too. Anyway. Today It will be very short, very quick and very “emotional”. I’ve got new Adele`s album called “21” – she is just 21 – but it is pretty mature. What a music! What a lyrics! and most of all: What a VOICE and the Personality!!! Just get it right now!!
It is all a bit weird, you listen to this and you feel like she reads you: what you want to say, what you feel, what you want to express. That is the “art” thing, no? You sing, you play, you draw and you just do not need to say anything else – Adele said that it is a pretty cheap therapy. Self-therapy. And kinda she is right. But also that has nothing to do with so-called “naive art” – where art piece is a very direct extension or expression of artist`s feelings, where there are more emotions and beliefs than substance – well in a way.
So you have an inspiration or reason /Adele had a break-up/ for the need to create something. /I cannot believe it supposed to be short this time. It is 1:25am and I want to have a piece of my book before my sleep/. Carrying it on: so you start with the inspiration and then… you create but when you do it so, in a way, the reason and the inspiration are fading almost away and all you have it is almost mathematical: rhythm, composition, value, saturation, balance, texture, shapes and colours and tints, and the story and… etc etc etc and then when you are done, when the thing is complete and it’s the good one you feel complete too. All is in the “right”place and most of all the reason, the inspirations creatively-modified appears too. Well, at least it is more visual, more physical than during the process – though there always were there, under your skin, giving you the oil for your engines to work.
So far I’ve done a not too small not too big amount of works and only with some I felt it was perfect, it was complete. It was mostly with my earlier work: my illu first time ever printed The Touch for 125 mag, but most of all, if I need to pick up one it would be SPUTNIK OBBSESSION for also 125 magazine – I knew I made it perfect, perfect for myself, it was done the way it should be done – it was a quite big job. It was like you read a book and at the last page you know why all the pages before was written, when the dot makes “i” to be “i” /does that makes sense?/. It was an amazing feeling and pretty selfish or rather self-indulged. The rest didn’t matter. And I guess for this particular moment, for this special emotion I am still doing what I am doing. It is like an addiction about which I have almost forgotten recently – but as the addiction nature is, it said to me: “hello, I am still here, and won’t let you go”. So I do carry on. With you or without you.This special “cheap” therapy.
What a coincidence: I wrote the whole text above it few days ago and just yesterday I had a coffee with an amazing woman – who I DO respect LOTS – and it was like a lesson to me, the lesson I needed to hear in this particular moment /will write about it another time/, and she said: “an important thing is to carry on. It is easy to give up”. Amen.
PS I still cant stop listen to Adele
PSS I cannot write everyday but I will do my best to send a piece of my day at least – even I cannot say much.
PSS Below: SPUTNIK OBSESSION for 125 magazine, Decades Issue 2005. Is it still so perfect to me? It’s different perfection now.